What a RIDE!!!! 12-9-09

I must say that I experienced a very crazy ride Wednesday December 9th.

I was heading out of my driveway that morning and put on my seatbelt(which I never do), turned up my radio and off to work I went. I put no thought to my selt belt being on, if fact I didn't even realize I had it on.
I was on 12Th street heading to work just like every other day. Realizing I needed to be in the right hand lane; I looked over my shoulder and seen a truck but knew I had plenty of room to move over. So, that is what I attempted to do. I put on my signal and away we went; the back end of my jeep turned sideways and now myself and my jeep were sideways on 12th street heading for the north side of the street. I knew what was about to happen was not going to be fun or good. So I just let it happen; away we went rolling 3 or 4 times and I just keep thinking "please god, let me live." I remember holding so tight to the steering wheel and closing my eyes. When I realized what had just went on, I thought OK Heather you can either lay here and freeze or you can get your butt up and get out!! I am not one to wait for things to show up on my doorstep; off the seat belt went and out came Heather, or so I thought. Easier said than done I suppose because it didn't happen how I thought. I was lucky enough to have the helping hands of several men. I remember one in particular; older gentleman who was so very nice and caring. This man helped me walk over to his warm truck and talked to me while we waited for the ambulance to arrive. I kept looking over at my jeep and just crying; I wanted her to be OK and flip back up on her feet and take me to work like we planned!!
As I sat in this man's warm truck I started thinking of those people I needed to call. Of course Renae was first on the list; I felt so bad for calling her and walking her up. Next was Brent, my manager, his phone was off!! And as I was went to dial another; the ambulance showed up. I knew at that point in time how lucky I was to even be alive! The EMT's started their procedures and asking all sorts of questions. They kept saying "You are very lucky Heather, very lucky." The ride up to the hospital was not so much fun at all. I was poked so many times I cant even remember; but I can remember the really hot EMT do it!! So it was not so bad!! As they were wheeling me into the hospital, I heard a nurse say we need to cut her coat off so we can get a blood pressure; that sure caught my attention and I flipped. I remember my exact words "the hell if your going to cut my coat off, you cut it off and I will be one pissed off girl!!" I am sure they cared lol!!!
Everything checked out, no broken bones or anything too serious!!! I was so so so lucky to walk away from this with no serious injuries!!! I was also so very lucky to have such great family members come up to the hospital and stay with me and take such good care of me.. I am not one to depend on anyone so this has been a bit difficult!! Thank you RENAE for all the countless hours you have helped me!! Your truly a BEST FRIEND!!

Now for reality to hit; I have no vehicle for a while and my poor jeep is most likely totalled!! Although I still have hope!!
I am very lucky to still have my life and be here today!! I know the odds were against me and my chance of living after rolling a vehicle four times are slim!!

My Jeep is now famous!!! She was in the newpaper Thursday 12-10-09, I have added the web address if your interested in reading it!!!
Remember~ WEAR YOUR SEAT BELTS!!!
http://www.standard.net/topics/featured/2009/12/09/icy-roads-snowfall-cause-numerous-slide-offs-and-crashes

Life Lessons!!! Finally, I see the good!!!

Lately... I have been through a few tough spots in the last little while... And trust me I have really had a hard time seeing all the good in this mess.... I never thought my life could get so out of control.. I am one to keep control of my life and never let things get to crazy... So here is what I have learned.... Seeing my poor dad go through chemo really sucks.... Seeing how much pain he is in really is sad... But... I have so much pride to be his daughter... He is such a strong person and doesnt let anything get in his way... I have so much respect for him and love him so very much.. I hope he can get through this chemo and things start looking up for him... He is still going to day care and loves it.. He thinks its work, its cute to see him tell everyone that he works three days a week... They will ask what he does and his response is... " I sit and relax, watch movies, talk to everyone and eat.." Oh its so cute...
Another life lesson I have seen good in is... paying a mortgage!!!!!! Wow, what a huge responsiblity!!! But... I love having this huge responsiblily... It has taught me so much... I love having a place to call home!!! A place to do whatever I want to do to it!!! Its great!!!
And one last lesson!!!! I am never going to settle ever again for a man... I know what i want in a guy and I will some day find him... I cant wait to find him and have my dream of a family come true... I love how my life is now, and cant wait to share it with someone!!!

I am a bit late, but I wanted to wish my Brother Josh a Happy Birthday!!! I hope he knows how much he is missed and loved... Love you Josh!!! Thanks for watching over us!!!

One last thing!!! Renae, is the bestest friend anyone could ever ask for!!! I absoulity love having her as my friend!!! She has been there for me through thick and thin!!!! If everyone had a best friend like me I can promise your life would be so much better!!! Thanks Renae for everyone you have done for me!!! Your the BEST!!!

What's Next????

Well I wish I knew!! Life has been really crazy the last few days. With my dad being sick and in the hospital life seems to only get busier. Poor guy has been through a lot in the last few months. I am glad to have him back home, I really missed my little buddy. Its funny, because him and I are so much alike. (ask Renae) We are very much OCD, change our clothes more than we should, talk way tooooo much and our facial features are so similar... Its nice to have him back home where I can watch over him and make sure he is receiving the best care possible. Although, his injections at four times a day seems to be very tiring. Thanks to Renae I have been able to sleep a few nights through them. She has really been such a help and strength. Even Glen (guy I am dating) has stepped up to the plate and helped. He came over tonight, while Renae and I went to see Darius Rucker in concert. What a nice break, the weather was perfect and Darius was so good. (and super HOT!!!)
As my life continues on and each new day passes, I am soo blessed to have those special family/friends in my life. I would not be who I am today if those certain people were not apart of my life. I am one lucky girl!!!

A Day To Always Remember!!!

Joshua John Miles
Born in Layton, Utah on Nov. 9, 1982
Departed on Aug. 27, 2006 and resided in Bountiful, UT.
Joshua John Miles, age 23, passed away Sunday, August 27, 2006 in Bountiful, Utah. Josh was born November 9, 1982 in Layton, Utah, the son of Gary Ray Miles.
Josh graduated from Layton High School in 2001. Josh married Amanda Kay Boise on January 10, 2003 in Salt Lake City, Utah.
Josh always went out of his way to help all that he came in contact with. Josh loved to go camping, fishing, hunting, boating, and over all his favorite thing to do was spend time with his wife and 2 year old daughter.
Josh was a wonderful son, husband, father and friend.
Josh is survived by his wife, Amanda Miles; his father, Gary Miles; and his sister, Heather Miles; along with many other loved family and friends.
Funeral services will be held at 1:00 p.m., Thursday, August 31, 2006 at Val Verda 4th Ward Chapel, 2633 South 50 West, Bountiful, Utah. Friends and family may call Wednesday evening from 6:00 - 8:00 p.m. at the Russon Brothers Bountiful Mortuary, 295 North Main and again Thursday morning 11:45 - 12:45 p.m. at the church prior to services. Interment-Hooper City Cemetery. Online guest book at www.russonmortuary.com.

Today is a day I will always hold dear and close to my heart. Loosing a close family member or friend is very hard to deal with. Death is one part of life that will always be apart of you no matter what..
It honestly feels like 10 years since I have seen Josh. Although I can remember the exact day like it was yesterday. I was on my way up to Snowbird for a week long vacation. On my way there, I stopped at Josh's house to drop off Dad to him. I remember Josh coming out to my car and giving me all the older brother advice he can think of... Always started off with something like this..... "Now Heather, You know who you are and the life style you want. Don't screw it up..." He was always very supportive of all my decisions but, reminded me constantly to not screw the future up because of one dumb decision. Josh knew the drinking problem I use to have. He knew the addictive personality I have and always reminded me to be "good". As I was pulling out of his driveway, he come running after my car and asked for a hug. Josh was soooo good about showing his love for anyone. But with me he knew I needed just a bit more. Josh was never one to hide his emotions or love for anyone.. That was one of my most favorite things about him. At times I can feel him hugging and holding on to me when things are rough, feels so real.
Another memory of Josh that I remember like it was yesterday; we all planned a trip to Wendover for Dad's birthday in July of 2006. We all shared a hotel room and really enjoyed each others company during that trip. The night before we planned to leave, the fire alarm went off in the Hotel.. As we were all getting out the hotel, Josh was no where to be found. Moments after the fire trucks left Josh calls me, "Heather Heather are you ok? What happened? Why did the fire alarm go off?" The laughter in his voice, leads me to believe he was very much responsible for the fire alarm. Later on he admits; he was the one who set the fire alarm off. He thought smoking was permitted, didn't even think it would cause a problem.. Josh was full of life and laughter. I remember him quoting this to me all the time, " This exact day and time will never occur again, Heather live your life to the fullest." And that is how I live my life now..TO THE FULLEST!!!
Josh, I want you know how much we all miss your love, laughter and hugs. You are loved so much by so many. Our/my life has not been the same since that early 27th day in August of 2006. Josh, you have taught me so much and I am very grateful for all your knowledge.(I use it daily) :) People who don't know you; know you now because of me. We are so very much alike in many ways. You may not be here physically but you live on from day to day in our/my hearts. We all hold you close to our hearts and miss you so very much.
I cant wait to see you again and just hug you!!! I love you!!!

P.S. Thanks to my very best friend who has helped me through this rough journey.. I will be forever in debt to you.. Also, those who have reached out to me.
THANK YOU!!!

SuMmEr FuN!!

Summer time has always been a favorite season of mine; Vegas trips, rodeos, camping, parades, fireworks, taking the top off on my jeep, concerts, bbq's and spending time with family. I have always enjoyed spending time with others and especially family.
This summer has been sooo much fun; I just cant believe how fast the summer is flying by.

Last year I finally bought my dream car, a Jeep Wrangler. I have wanted a Jeep Wrangler since i was little, and I finally got one!! This year, I took the top off just a bit too early haha, but I have fully enjoyed it.

I just love going to a rodeo and as I am watching, I have such great memories of Josh, my brother. That man was a #1 fan of rodeo's!! I remember when we were growing up and our grandpa would take him to Hooper tomato days, and how Josh would ride bulls and bull fight. Every summer he looked forward to that. Last night I went to the Days of 47 rodeo, I had tears coming down my face as I sat and watched, I pictured Josh being right down in the middle of it all... Oh the memories....

Life sure has changed since Josh passed, I am a completely different person.. I just wish for one more day with him, one more hour just to tell him how much I love him and miss him.
Summer is just all around fun!!! And I am so glad that I have such great memories of my brother and I am so excited to keep enjoying all my summer days and making more memories.
My Trip to Vegas




We all had a great time.. Cant wait till November; that's my next vacation!!!

Life is so PRECIOUS!!!

I can't believe it has been just about 3 years since Josh passed away, and what a life changing event this has been. I thought I would share some history about him and I.
Josh and I grew up in foster care, we both knew life was going to be a struggle, but we were strong as a team to get through our childhood TOGETHER!! I remember calling him almost every night making sure he was ok, and he would do the same for me.. Our Holidays were not like every other childs, we felt out of place and at times unwanted. But as a team we made each other feel like we still had a family. Growing up for both of us was quick, we realized quickly how precious life truely is..

Josh grew up and became a very amazing man. He was the type of person who would help anyone. Several Thanksgivings ago; Josh, Amanda and Breann were invited to my house for dinner. I told Josh to be at my house by 1 pm, needless to say he didnt show up till almost 7pm. I was so upset with him, I remember calling him over and over asking were he was and he would keep telling me he was on his way. Once he arrived he then proceeded to tell me why he was soooo late. He was helping a single mom tow her car home and helped her get it running again. Didnt charge her a penny for his help. Boy, did i feel bad for being so upset with him. Josh would help anyone he knew had a need.. He also had the gift and talking to anyone and making friends with them instantly.
I remember him telling me he was going to be a dad, oh how proud he was. I was very fortunate to be in the deliverly room when his daughter was born... He was the proudest man alive, he could now build a family and give his daughter what he didnt have, A MOM and A DAD.. Josh was one of the best dads ever, he turned his little girl into a cowgirl from the day she was born... He took her everywhere with him, and she loved him so much. Although he only spent a short two and a half years with her, I am sure she loved those two and a half years with him..
The call was horrible, it was a phone call I relive daily, I only wish things would have happened differently. Josh, was a very happy man... No one would have seen this coming, he was always happy.. I knew things were rocky for him, but he made the best of his situation and pressed forward. He was my strength and my hero, he was such an amazing man. He taught me everything I know; fix my car, manage money, be positive and live life to the fullest!! Although its been almost three years, I still catch myself dialing his phone number and realize he wont be picking up on the other side.. Its been such a struggle to get use to being the only child left. I miss him helping me with my dad, its hard to do this alone. I have been very lucky though, I have a very amazing best friend who has been there from day one. Without her I would have given up. She has been a sister to me and I will forever owe her. Even her Mom and Dad have taken me under their wings and treated me like family, this means so much to me..

Josh, I miss you so much!!! I hope you know how much you are missed and loved...

This picture was taken by one of my great friends! She took a photo of Josh and cropped it in a picture she took of me and our dad.

Happy Fathers Day!!!

My dad is not like everyone elses dad out there, my dad is my present from god!!! He has given me something i thought i would never learn, unconditional love and Patience!!! He has taught me to stick with anything you put your mind to.. I ve seen this man go through pure HELL, and yet he can still put a smile on his face, ride his bike to work and say the funniest things ever!!! I am so proud of him, he really does try his hardest to be the best dad for me. Its been such a struggle for him to loose my brother and I know he misses him alot.

I am very blessed to have him as my dad!!!

Here Comes The Sun!!!!

I cant believe how fast my days go, seems like yesterday that i graduated from high school and started experiencing reality!! Well, i believe tomorrow is another one of those reality wake up calls... Like i said in my post last week i am starting a new job tomorrow, i am so nervous but very excited to see what this opportunity has in store for me.. I never thought that i would have this chance to become such a vital part in the Irs. I ve always wanted to have this type of job and now i have it i am soooo super nervous.. I will be training tomorrow and Thursday. Friday is my last day in my old department; I have gained some great friendships and learned so much from my manager, sandy... She has really become a very good friend of mine, and believed in me and saw potential.. Thank you Sandy!!! Then I am off for 11 days for Vacation (which i just can't wait for).. I am hoping things go great in my new department, wish me luck (cause i am going to need it!!)

I Finally Did IT!!!

I cant believe I actually created this lol... For the longest time I kept telling Renae that I would never create one... Never Say Never!!! Look where it got me haha!!!
I really enjoy sharing my life with others and enjoy making others laugh and have a great time, so i am sure you will find alot of joy in reading my blogs.
Life right now is full of busy busy busy... I just got offered a new job at the Irs and I cant wait to find out where that takes me... I will be a Department Managers Assistant, which is a huge step for me... I love having responsibility and being organized, thats exactly what I will need to take on this new job, so we shall see how it goes... My first day is this next Wednesday, I am sure its going to be alot of note taking...
Friday the 29th of this month is a very exciting day, I am going on my very needed vacation with my bestest friend, her two super cute kids, and my father. We are all headed down to St. George and Las Vegas for 11 days. I cant even remember when the last time was that i took such a long vacation..