The Good, The Bad, The Ugly

Life sure can be good, bad and ugly all at the same time!!!!
For the most part life in my neck of the woods is GREAT!!! Except when you have a broken down vehicle and a horrible roof inspector!!!
Lets begin with the broken down vehicle!!! As most of you know, I just bought my Durango back in January. I honestly thought the guy I bought it from was very honest and trustworthy. Needless to say everything he said he had fixed or replaced on the Durango was clearly NOT fixed!!! And that is where I begin; on my way to work (sure seems like my trouble always begins with going to work, that has to be my sign) and needed to stop at the bank for some lunch money. As I was approaching the intersection by Harrisville Wal-mart I went to turn on my radio (I needed to jam out) and the darn thing would not turn on. I just figured it was a blown fuse or something small. Heading down washington ALL and I mean ALL my warning icons came on. The Airbag, Security, Check Engine and so on...... Oh my goodness I knew we had problems, but again just kept on driving...... As I am pulling into the bank I could clearly tell that my battery was having some major issues... I pulled up to the ATM, did my business as usual and pulled away.. No more than 100ft my car stalled and completely dead!!!!! Oh my gosh talk about embarrassing!!!!! I kept praying, "Please God let my car start, at least to just get me out of the parking lot and on to the side of the street so no one can tell I have car problems". Did work as I wanted and there I sat, right in the middle of the exit turning lane!!! I didn't know what to do!!! Who do I call???? Its 6:45am!!!! Thought about calling my road side assistance, or a guy friend (but didn't want him to think I was using him, considering I hadn't accepted a date from him) and then I thought all I need is a jump, hello not rocket science!!! I immediately called Renae; who was getting up for work anyways, and minutes later she came to my rescue!!! What amazing people I have in my life!!! A huge thank you goes out to Roz and Joel Nerdahl, for helping me with my car and getting it back to its tip top shape!!! The Nerdahl's are amazing people and have such loving hearts!!! I am very lucky to have them as neighbor's and friends!!!

Now, on to this roof business!!!!! What a joke that has been!!! I honestly didn't know owning a home was such a pain in my back end!!!!! I mean really, who wants to deal with a ridiculous roof inspector!!! Certainly not ME!!!! They call him the underwriter so I have been told, this man is clearly smoking something to request what he has requested of me!! If I don't have enough to try and deal with he wants me to replace my entire roof because he thinks my roof is 25 years + and not structurally sound, who is this man!!! Um pretty sure I bought this house less than two years ago and it would not of pasted a home inspection if there were problems!!! So, I am searching for new Homeowners Insurance, if anyone knows of someone let me know!!!

Life truly has its moments of bad and ugly; but then comes the GOOD!!!! Which seems to always way out the bad and ugly. This summer has really been great and sooo eventful!!! I could not have asked for a more full filling summer; between Disneyland, Seaworld, camping, Lagoon and summer BBQ's this summer has just been great!! I am so excited for Fall, Halloween is one of my favorite holidays!!!

I am not sure where the next topic falls; good bad or ugly. As the anniversary of Josh's death is fast approaching, I am not sure how to handle it. One moment I am just fine and the next I am mad, angry and upset. Seems like every year I can not get a grip on his passing, and I don't know how long it will take before I stop trying to call him and think he is still with us. My heart still is broken and hurts more and more. I can remember everyone telling me that it will get easier as time goes on. But its not getting any easier at all, in fact its getting harder. Why??? Its been four years since that dreaded horrible August morning and my life has forever changed!!! I look at life at such a different angle and I know how precious it is. You just never know when the last time will be when you see someone you love and care about... I would give anything just for one more day or hour with him!!!

Life sure is amazing and soooo precious!!!!